Kahi kuch atka hua hai

Kuch to theek nahi hai....kahi kuch atka hua hai....
I am feeling as if I am in Coma, i know what is happening around me, i can hear people,there is something unlike usual happening, i can sense the uneasiness spread around me but i cannot do anything about it. I cannot react. I am helpless.There are mixed emotions Loss,Betrayal,Helplessness. I feel small. I feel very tiny.

Sitting in his chair, this is the current mental state of Raj, who till now was a live wire, happy go lucky personality,smart and sharp minded. He, to everyones belief, used to be the epicenter of happening in his workplace. His professional life was going great and his personal life was even better. He was planning to tie the knot and have a peaceful settled life, but suddenly, life took a ugly turn.

Good morning, said Raj.

Very Good morning Raj. So shall we start our discussion, he said.

Sure, I have been waiting to this for quite sometime now. Its the right time to discuss on how well i am doing in my work.

Raj was surprised to get this unexpected untimely discussion request from his boss but being an optimist,he was hoping for the best.

Discussion went on smoothly for few minutes. Raj was expecting a salary hike this time.

Raj, don't take this personally but I have observed few things about you and have got feedback from your peers as well. 'You have attitude problem', he said to Raj. 'You are inducing negative vibes within the team'.

'Are you talking to me. No he cant be' , Raj said to himself

We have seen that tasks assigned to you usually get delayed and are of low quality, he continued.

'............'

Raj was feeling embarrassed. He has not encountered these kinds of questions before. Doubts started creeping in his mind. His confidence took a beating. He was not the same Raj that has entered the cabin door anymore.

Most of the time, you are taking personal calls at work.

'...........'

Raj was numb. His mind has fallen deep into a black hole. Neurons in his brains were statued. He could hear his heart beat.He could feel every ounce of oxygen he was breathing in.Is this a bad dream. Come on...wake up Raj. This cant be true.

Do you have anything to say Raj

'..........'

Raj, hey Raj

Ohh.....yes....sorry Hari.....

No problem Raj, Do you disagree with me?

Hell yes i disagree with you, you moron. Raj wanted to shout this back to him, but he didn't

I have always put in 100 percent in my work Hari sir. In a moment, Hari has become Hari sir to him. In his mind he has already distant himself from him

But we have raised the bar now Raj. I am sorry to say but we dont need your services anymore.

Raj was shattered to hear this statement. Never, ever in his wildest, craziest thoughts, he had imagined somebody will say these words to him

Lets make is easy for both of us. Sign in these papers and pack your bags.

Raj was getting LAYED OFF. It wasn't his fault at all. But destiny these days is not made by GOD, but by your boss. So what, he has spent sleepless night working alone like a dog, so what he has proved his loyalty and importance time and again. No one cares here.

He made it easy of him like he has always been doing it for his coworkers in his professional life. He thought its not worthy enough to fight for his cause here now.The writing was on the wall and he accepted it with a brave face.

Stepping out of the building, Raj promised himself that he will not change himself for others. He will remain the way he is and will take life by its collar. He know he will see through this struggle and come up as a WINNER in the end

......to be continued